His smile touches me from within
A rocking motion,
Building faster and faster
Like the memories left
Between the sheets on our bed.

Work days are long
And anything but seamless
But to look up and see him there-
A smile, a wink, a whispered, 
“I love you.”
I remember happiness
Lost somewhere
In the monotony of waiting tables.

I see him and know
That somehow I got lucky-
I found love.

Hunting for release,
We drive through life
100 miles an hour
Pushing that gas further
Striving each day
For a bit more-
More speed, more fun
150 miles an hour
The car starts to shake
“Just a little more,”
You think, blindly
“Almost there,”
We think we’re searching
For love, happiness, magic
The brick wall comes
Out of nowhere-
We’re only searching for Death
After all, what better release
Than finality?

If I Close My Eyes

If I close my eyes,

Whilst you’re away,
I can feel your fingertips
Brush my collarbone
And trail their way so gently
Down my bare back.

If I close my eyes,
Whilst you’re away,
I can smell your skin
On my skin and in our sheets
The memory of our drifting sleep
Only hours previous.

If I close my eyes,
Whilst you’re away,
I can see your smile
And the shine in your eyes
When you see me walk into a room,
As if the sight were new.

If I close my eyes,
Whilst you’re away,
I can almost hear your laugh
And the way you say,
“I love you, my baby.”
Five words I never tiring of hearing,
For I cannot help but reciprocate.

If I close my eyes,
Whilst you’re away,
I can taste your kiss on my lips
Just a shade of the real thing,
But enough to cope until you’ve returned,
And brought your kiss
Back to my kiss.

If I close my eyes,
Whilst you’re away,
I can almost pretend that you
Are by my side.

Silkmoth fluttering
Through magicked flame
Dreams of flickering
Smoky hazed and drifting

Dancing feet
On broken glass
Slippers falling
Coming untied

Sleep now
If not then
Past, present, future
Timeline’s butterfly

Forgetting

I have internet again, finally.

And my brain doesn’t know what to say.